Good evening , dearest.
Today I had a massive headache and cold in the morning,
so I am convinced that I have to slow down, overall.
Giving a time to rest.
I think they were leftovers from the yesterday :
I was already not feeling good at work (headaches) and I was stressed up.
Those combined led to a breakdown, I suppose. [28/5]
As some might know, Life Blog started as my own journal and therapy.
Afterwards I believe (still do)
that I have much to say, teach and speak out
to the public or anyone willing to read me.
[…] Since I have started studying
I have been through highs and lows, as it is usual.
However, I have been facing some gossiping and comments from colleagues.
A situation from fifteen days ago and it was not that much of a big deal…
But it was not forgotten along with other events…
Answer to SELF :
Yes, those gossips affected me.
The next question is : Until when ??
I have been fragile lately but I manage to make it through the day ,
Work combined to the course along with the lack of time for resting , etc
I believe I am proud of my acchievements, because my «older self»
would just give up and give in (waving a white flag)
Instead of NOW always keeping up and pushing forward, «new self».
I admit that today I was almost to the point of wanting to cry.
But I had to keep moving and I went to my appointment.
On therapy I was reminded of the progress that I made
Since I have started until now. The psychologist is proud
and I smiled.
But she told me one thing in particular that really made me wonder …
« I know you went through a lot, , I really know.
But they do not know that. »
« You have two options :
Back away and ignore or confront and face the consequences. »
[…] «This is not bullying from high school coming back»
These words… it was like she was really reading my mind.
« It is not coming back ».
« Bullying is not coming back ».
It reassured me, it conforted me during this time of need
And I feel that to get along and to create empathy
with the psychologist/doctor/counselor is key.
About friendships…we do not need a lot of friends
Just people that are there during the good and bad times
Answer : It is not coming back and I am not going to give in.
I have personal and professional goals and nothing is going
To keep me away from them.
Many blessings !