Relationships – Years.

Good afternoon…

I was able to rest for at least a couple of hours.
Double post, which is not the regular basis but I wish to make it up to you 
In case there is a time I leave the blog less active.

Today is an important day…
For us, me and (I also believe) you.

It has been two years since our first kiss, since we started dating
I remember it as it was yesterday.
That beautiful place with the perfect company.

It has been two years, with times of joy, hurt, laughter and much love.
Two years of many to come, if your heart desires the same as me.
Two years loving and living with and for someone else
Wanting nothing else that his happiness.

POV : 
I was and am not the kind of person
to wish anything else different than a love for life.
Short term relationships are not meant for me.
I wished someone for life, to hold closely, look after and love much.
And also to feel the same back, for me.

At that time, I was not expecting to meet you.
We began as friends. I was not looking for love.
Time passed and we were trusting more and more in eachother.
Going out for a walk or coffee, laughting much, speaking a lot on the phone
(We could speak for hours about random things , everything and nothing
And even talk about serious subjects)

I fell in love with that handsome young man.
He loved me back, but I was scared if he didn’t love me back…
We had already a solid friendship and I didn’t want to lose it,
In case he didn’t felt the same.

One day, the 29th, we asked eachother, something like this on msn :
« Do you like LIKE someone? »
(I hesitated but said) « Yes… »

Then I said « You. »
I logged off but left other of my accounts open.
Then he told me that he had something to tell me.
That he loved me back.

I was really shy at the time but I felt the happiest and luckiest person in the World!
I still do, after all these days, months and years shared.
I do not know what will the future bring for us.
Only GOD know and time will tell.

I shall be waiting and want you to know that you made me… 
A better person than I used to be
A stronger human being, for always believing in me
A beautiful man who saw me and loved me for being just…ME.

Hopefully I can bring and give you as much or more 
Than you gave to me.
WordsKeeper, this is for you.
Thank you… I love you  !

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Social – Friendships and Bullying POV

Good evening , dearest.

Today I had a massive headache and cold in the morning,
so I am convinced that I have to slow down, overall.

Giving a time to rest.
I think they were leftovers from the yesterday :
I was already not feeling good at work (headaches) and I was stressed up.
Those combined led to a breakdown, I suppose.  [28/5]

POV : 
As some might know, Life Blog started as my own journal and therapy.
Afterwards I believe (still do)
that I have much to say, teach and speak out
to the public or anyone willing to read me.

[29/05]
[…] Since I have started studying
I have been through highs and lows, as it is usual.
However, I have been facing some gossiping and comments from colleagues.
A situation from fifteen days ago and it was not that much of a big deal…
But it was not forgotten along with other events…

Answer to SELF : 
Yes, those gossips affected me.
The next question is : Until when ??

POV : 
I have been fragile lately but I manage to make it through the day ,
Work combined to the course along with the lack of time for resting , etc
I believe I am proud of my acchievements, because my «older self»
would just give up and give in (waving a white flag)

Instead of NOW always keeping up and pushing forward, «new self».
I admit that today I was almost to the point of wanting to cry.
But I had to keep moving and I went to my appointment.

On therapy I was reminded of the progress that I made
Since I have started until now. The psychologist is proud
and I smiled.

But she told me one thing in particular that really made me wonder …
« I know you went through a lot, , I really know.
But they do not know that. »

« You have two options :
Back away and ignore or confront and face the consequences. »

[…] «This is not bullying from high school coming back»
These words… it was like she was really reading my mind.
« It is not coming back ».
« Bullying is not coming back ».

It reassured me, it conforted me during this time of need
And I feel that to get along and to create empathy
with the psychologist/doctor/counselor is key.

About friendships…we do not need a lot of friends
Just people that are there during the good and bad times

Answer : It is not coming back and I am not going to give in.
I have personal and professional goals and nothing is going
To keep me away from them.

Many blessings !

Relationships – A Time.

Good afternoon,

Opinions divide in this point.
Some say it is somewhat hand to hand with breaking up.

In my point of view, I disagree
However, it is not always that way.
It does not mean exactly that.

Sometimes, people need a bit of space for themselves.
One that needs to think about the relationship
Or other that needs to analise himself or herself.

Again, in my opinion,
Any relationship can be sucessful
As long as love exists
And the couple is willing to work things out.

I think such is possible.
I do believe in relationships
And personally I do give my best for my better half.


I also believe, at heart, that by being honest, sincere
And by communicating your own thoughts and feelings
That any problems or issues can and will be solved quickly.

I absolutely trust that, if the person is not ending the relation
That there still is hope and there is still a spark and feelings.
I believe in love and I believe in the relationship that I am in
Always fighting for it, the best I can.

It is good to analise yourself and gain Independence
In order to not suffocate your partner with demandings
He/She ought to have his/her own circle of friends
and occupations.

It is healthy to be a little time apart
Then while coming back together you can talk again
And sort out your diferences and conclusions.

Time can be useful for that.

“Never Forget your partner, your better half
Give him/her space, yet let him/her
Know that you are there unconditionally”.

It all can be fixed.
I have faith in so.
So have faith, too.

Blessings ;

Suicide – Second Chance

Good afternoon everyone,

Warning ! : This particular post may be triggering,
Eventhough that is not my intention, at all.

[…] Sleepiness. A strong effort from the heart— followed by fast and slow heart beatings,
I felt drowsy and I went to sleep right away.

I took an impulsive action, sure to say that it was the worst to take in my life
and I was clearly not acting consciously and with clear thoughts…

I must highlight that.

[…] I woke up, but I was still feeling sleepy,
Coming slowly to conciouness  

It is a true story.
It carries no glamour or whatsoever.

[…] Only after some hours I felt better.
But this history…is a real story and my fate could have been different.
Life gave me a second chance, BUT I could have died!

Then I think :
My family. My friends.
People who stood up for me and love me the way I am.
They aren’t perfect but neither am I.

What I really want to tell you
and wish for you to take as a lesson is this :

” Never take your Life for granted, 
Nor take it too lightly because it can slip away “. 

” Do not hurt yourself. 
You have value and I am sure that you are treasured! “.

How do I know this?
I just know it, at heart.
Negative situations will pass. Taking your life won’t, it is permanent.

It would be a wound for all your loved ones, a permanent one because you are not replacable, ever.

Take this plead to heart.
Listen to it, throughly
And pass it to others,
In hope of letting people know of this harsh truth.

We need to save them.
And I want to save YOU.

Social – Decisions and POV’s

Good afternoon,

This has been a rather interesting journey…!

Decisions.
We all have to make them at certain point or points in our lives.

From little and insignificant ones such as
“Which color clothing am I going to pick out to wear today?” 

Or “Should I get fish or meat for dinner”?

…Up to life changing decisions that can give your life a 360º turn…

For example :

“Should I start taking a professional course, go college or start working?”

“Should I have kids or should I adopt?”

Because they have a significant impact in your life.

POV : 
We tend to ask advice, once in a while.

NOTE : Secretly, we tend to seek approval and support from other people.
I admit I did, from friends. It became too much, up to the limit
Of being way too dependent and reliable on them.
It became too much. Too overwhelming.

« I found out and discovered that, looking closely,
I wasn’t taking decisions for myself 100%,
Like I had a chackle in my ankles nearly all the time ».

This is the closest to describe and I have learned the hard way.

It is not easy to choose so. To open up this way.
This is 100% my decision.

Now looking back,
How could I let it go this far? To not be fully independent?

The beauty of life is that.
To know that the rights and wrongs of a decision
were done by YOU and you, alone.
To know that no one else carried the “blame”.
It can be scary, but we have to face our fears.

« Part of growing up is exactly to hold 
And assume the responsibility of his/her mistakes »

And… finally to know that one decision
Is NOT a burden nor has to carry weight along.

It is a decision and you have the power to choose.
You do not have to seek approval.

POV : 
It is good to have support now and then,
But people are not forced to nod their heads (yes, yes)
And simply agree all the time…

They can have different opinions and views, based or not on the situation.
It is normal.

« One who is not going through the situation 
Will have a whole diferent perception and perspective ».

Plus there is another point (question) to take to heart :

« That person, friend or individual does 
Or does not know the situation or the people involved? »

They can even be leading you to a wrong direction, 
Wrong decision or something that you do not wish to do!

« Besides this, you are NOT FORCED to make his/her opinions
The undeniable truth or something you have to go follow and do ».

To make your own decisions,
Choosing them by your own hand…

1. Will make you feel better.

2. You will become more independent.

3. You will get stronger and build confidence.

POV : 
You can feel free.
I am no longer hearing the ones who do not know my situation
Nor have walked in my shoes.
It is better off this way and I smile because I attained so.
I can decide for myself, even if I make mistakes, I am human.
I can decide for myself, the way I wish it to be.
I am… Just me… and I can be so much more.
And so can be you.

Social – Self Esteem and POV’s

Dearest,

These are troubled times we are experiencing.
Therefore my goal is to help one another, whenever possible.
So, I picked Self Esteem.

There are three ways to see Self Esteem…
1 ) The way we see ourselves.

2 ) The way others see us.

3 ) The way we think that others see us.

Those three views on Self Esteem
Ought to collide with eachother at times.
Our self esteem starts to be formed at an early age.
Our parents are responsible shape that aspect while they are educating us

That shapes The way we see ourselves.

While we grow and watch our colleagues and parents.
Thus, we are facing and seeing The way others see us
(through their actions, sayings and opinions)

Lastly, we can have a third perception on self esteem :
The way we think that others see us,
and this one can be either right or very wrong.
(means that it can be distorted easily)

It is VERY IMPORTANT to take Self Esteem nearly at heart.
Otherwise, growing up with a poor self esteem can be devastating.
Likewise, growing up with a overly high self esteem can be troubling, too.


POV :
I grew up with a poor self esteem, I admit it.
The perception I had of the world and of my future was not bright
When one grows up with a poor self esteem, he or she can tend to isolate
Lose security and value in his or herself.

And all the rest came along (can be read in other posts), as you know.
But those least positive points are not
What I want to teach or bring highlight upon.

The bottom line is to pay attention to these situations
For your loved one’s sake and health!


A bruised self esteem can give place for other problems such as…
– Anxiety
– Lack of Security
– Depression
– Eating Disorders
– For one to become a bully or bullied.
– Other health disorders and mental illness
– Self Injury
– Suicidal thoughts.
– Risk of Suicide.

We have to let our children and teens know the rights and wrongs
Know tolerance, acceptance and other essencial values
Such as sharing, and be aware of causes.

Why ?
Because our children will be adults in the future
They will be the adults of the FUTURE.
And I (as you probably not as well) do not wish that
Our grown ups become sick or imitate our mistakes.
Due to watching us neglecting them…
No, we can not allow that to happen!

Speaking of that…here is a video on the matter.

NOTE : We need to care for our beloveds
Each and every day.
Even if we are too stressed or upset to attend them.
Let him/her know that you are there.

I read a really interesting email some days ago from a friend.
I no longer have it in my inbox, but it was about being there.

It was a beautiful history about a father and a young son.His parents weren’t able to be there for him :His mother and father were working until late to sustain their house and pay their bills.

They could barely see eachother : He was early at schoolAnd his parents would return late from work, By that time the child would be sleepingTo attend another day of school on the following day.

So…his father had an idea.

Late at night when he arrived home from work,

He would make a tiny noose in his son’s bedsheets

and kiss his forehead, every night.

That way, the child would know that his father was there.

Bottom line : 
On this tiny history,
The noose would represent a tiny but meaningful gesture of being there
And a sign of connection between both.

We do not need a lot of words, 
We need (big or small) actions
That come out from the heart, with kindness and love, instead.

POV : 
To heal broken / bruised self esteem
It takes time…specially if you still
do not know what was the cause.
So… I will demonstrate some steps here

(I have been through this journey already 
and still am following some of these steps)

1ST STEP : IDENTIFY
In this cases we have to look back to find the cause
Sometimes, seeking for help can be/is advised.

(For example : 
A psychologist/councelor or hypnotherapy)

We can name it «the root» problem,
Because we are talking about the possible cause or causes
(Can be multiple) that led to self esteem problems.

2ND STEP : RECOGNIZE / TAKE ACTION
Linked with step number one it is really important
And it is a great victory recognizing and be willing to improve
Let no one take that precious victory away from you
You are doing an effort to be a better person.

NOTE : It can be the other way around too…

1ST STEP : RECOGNIZE / TAKE ACTION 

2ND STEP : IDENTIFY

3TH STEP : BE PATIENT.
By rushing everything, we will not be attaining better results
Or quicker results. For an effective treatment to happen changes must occur.
Bad habits must be broken!
Waiting is actually PART of the process!

POV : 
In my therapy I was rushing and negleting
My well being and my goals. It had done me no good.
Due to economical reasons, I have found myself abandoning treatment
Specially when I was maybe needing it the most.

(For more information you can check
Relationships – Expectations)

But it was solved by searching for other solutions/alternatives
Eventually the place where I was receiving treatment
I had no longer to pay, because it was decided to be like so.

What I want to explain with this…
You do not have to live like that.
I know that you are a wonderful human being
And the faster you go seek help
You will for sure feel the benefits, eventually.

4TH STEP : Writing out or Speak it out.
It definately helps a lot. I might post the complete POV of some times of crisis
I will think about it , for the time being.
As far as I concern, I agree on this point to speak out to someone you trust
Specially, a loved one who you feel that you can talk freely, openly
Without thinking if you are bothering or not.

From experience , I speak with my mother.
Difficult times brought us closer and our daughter/mother relationship stronger.
So , out of a difficult situation, I can see and now sense improvement.
Not everything is dark, dim and other similar names .

I am satisfied with this because previously, 
All that I could see was darkness, like a dark cloud in front of me.

That has changed now and that cloud has dissapeared.
I wish from the bottom of my heart that you are able to improve too
And find your path.

NOTE : I do not mind sharing my personal story or my journey.
Reason ? I want to help out the best I can.
I want you to know that you are not alone on this.
I want you to know that there is a light, there is a hope, there is a way.


Job – Working and Studying

Good morning , readers !

How are you today?

I hope you are okay and I wish you all a wonderful weekend.
A little special something for you:
I decided to share the experience of working and studying at the same time
And some situations that happened to me, too.

Let’s start off with the Point of View, shall we?

POV : 
I have started working in a firm almost two weeks ago, by now.
The first days were quite a challenge, to adapt myself to the rythm ;
Besides this, I was not able to rest at home as I used to, atfter the course.

Working after the course was uniquely my decision
Connected with the wish to be more independent.
And I attained it.

” I sincerely believe that if we wish and fight hard on something,
It will most likely turn to your favor
It can either end well or turn into a valuable lesson to remember”.

The downside was that I started to feel more tired day by day
Until I really got used to it. Sometimes a smile and a cup of coffee do wonders!
(I am going to search for something to replace the cafeine, really! xd)

[…] Anyways, I know it is not the best on the «jobworld» and out there
But I am proud to say that I do love my job, with its ups and downs,
Pros and cons. It is humble, requires effort and it is a challenge, every day.

I always say to myself that I am doing my best,
And to smile regardless of feeling so, so tired.
I usually notice that when I do so, it all tend to get better
For those five hours. I was able to make friends at work, too.

Situation One :
I do opinion surveys on the telephone.
There was this lady who told me a loved one was in hospital
Also, that she was depressed. She answered the survey and by the time
And afterwards, I told her (in my language) :

« I believe, at heart, that everything will be alright
I had depression in 2007, diagnosed two years later
And now I am being treated and feeling better
Know that there is Hope and a Cure.
I know and believe that you will be alright
And that we are not able to appreciate happiness without knowing sadness
It makes part , and we can learn to live with both ».

(…) She agreed. I gave her some confort
and told her it was going to be alright and to have faith.
She thanked me. Then I had to go and end the phone call.
But I felt that she was feeling better, calm.
It was very rewarding, for me to notice so.

Situation Two :
I am aware that this maybe is not the most correct thing to be done
But it has a reason, and one reason alone, with no more intentions :
To thank people for answering the survey and let them know that they were kind.
I usually do not expect or spend time expecting for the answer.
I do my part of letting people know that they made the difference on answering the survey
By email. I only send one email and that is it.

So , unexpectfully, 
I got an answer from someone who answered to the survey two days ago.


“It was nice to be inquired by you.
I wish you the best success in your professional life and of student, 
always with the kind and professional attitude that I am sure that you have. 
Everytime you need say so.

Best regards.”

Then I think :
I mean, how can I not love my job???
Yes, I am aware that people are not always loving and kind,
There are rude answers too, but I learned to cope and laugh it off.
It is not like it is personal!

And these few situations make me appreciate the job that I have
And how lucky I am for actually having a job.
I feel it fulfills me and my dream of helping people.
Remember : One step at a time to make the difference.

Blessings!